It’s my birthday today. I hope you don’t mind a little self-indulgence in the form of a poem, expressing my thoughts on the matter.
Thirty-nine years old
One more year to forty
I am tired
I feel so very old
Who am I now though
At 39 years old?
A wife
A teacher? (not any more)
A mother above all
But where have I gone?
The girl who liked drinking
And going out with friends
Who liked dancing and singing
Staying up late
And sleeping all day
She is gone
Lost beneath the weight of responsibility
Suffocated by the neediness of her young
Consumed by tiredness and too much chocolate
I look in the mirror
I don’t like what I see
I am old
I am fat
I am weary
But ask my boys what do they see?
They see mummy
They see love
They see cuddles and kisses
They see bedtime stories and playing with dinosaurs
They see building towers so big you can’t reach the top
They see laughter and happiness
They see a better me
Ask my husband what does he see?
He sees beauty and kindness
He sees a soul that he loves
He sees me before, and now
He loves them both, all of me
Thirty-nine years old
Time to change
To be healthy (less cake would be a good start)
To be happy
To be the best me I can be
To be the me that they see
Beautiful poem; I especially love the idea of ‘he loves them both’ – a love which grows and strengthens to encompass all that you were and all that you are. #SharingTheBlogLove
(p.s. I miss the old me who would sleep all day too!)
I LOVE how you are able to focus on what your kids and husband see. I know how incredibly hard that can be on some days. Embrace 39 and love 40! #SharingtheBlogLove
I love this Sarah! You are so right this is what children see when they look at their mummy and I know my husband would agree with you too, he is always saying he doesn’t see what I see. I need to embrace my age more! Thank you for joining us at #SharingtheBlogLove
What a lovely poem, focusing on the positives and negatives love how the children see their mummy. Start saving for the big 40 and enjoy it #sharingthebloglove
This is so beautiful. I think we all feel like that sometimes when we look in the mirror, but you’re right, that’s not what our children and loved ones see at all. Maybe it is time to start seeing ourselves through their eyes x
#SharingtheBlogLove