I’ve been struggling since my last update – sticking to my diet seems to be really hard at the moment and I really need a good kick up the bum to get back on it. I’m so close to where I want to be, I can’t give up now…
17th September 2017 (Day 111)
I’m struggling at the moment. I just want to eat all the time, and I want to eat all the chocolate. I know it’s a downward spiral though and so far I’m resisting falling down that hole. I know I’m not hungry but I still want to eat. I guess my battle with emotional eating is going to be a life long struggle. Part of the problem is that I look and feel so much better now, having lost almost 2 stone, that it’s easy to think ‘that’ll do, I’ll stop here’. But I know from experience that if I stop before I really get down to the weight I want to be, I won’t be able to maintain my weight and before I know it I’ll be back where I started. And above all things that’s the thing I want to avoid. So I’ll carry on, and hopefully another good three or four weeks and I will be where I want to be.
21st September 2017 (Day 115)
I’m definitely having a wobble. I didn’t lose any weight this week – I’m exactly the same as last week so at least I didn’t put any back on. I’ve just been picking all week though – mostly ‘helping’ the kids with their snacks, along with a couple of coffees and cakes too. So today, I sort of gave myself a day off. I’ve not eaten masses but more than I would do normally. I even joined the boys in their chicken dippers and potato waffles for tea! I’m hoping that today will help me reset and I can get back on track tomorrow. I’m away this weekend too – I’m not planning on going crazy but sticking entirely on plan might be a bit too much to ask.
I’ve not done my yoga for over a week now either – I’ve been busy with work in the evenings but I’m also just being a bit lazy. I started a new 31 day challenge but I don’t really like it for some reason that I can’t quite work out. So I think I’m just going to stop with that and either start something new, or back to the beginning of the last 30 day ‘Yoga camp’ that I did and start again. Whatever I do I need to get back to it, and soon.
I haven’t really got that much more weight that I want to lose, but I do want to lose it, and I want to do it before the end of October when we’ve booked to go away for half term. I’ve got quite a few social and blogging things coming up between now and then though so I think it might be easier said than done!
27th September 2017 (Day 121)
I’m still wobbling here. I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I seem to have lost all my motivation and will power. I’m sure I must have put some weight on this week (I’ll find out tomorrow) but I just can’t seem to stop eating! It’s nothing catastrophic but I just keep picking at stuff. And I was away at the weekend and had an alcoholic drink (or three) for the first time since the end of May! I wrote a couple of weeks ago about changing my attitude to food but it would seem that old habits die hard. I really want to just get back on plan properly for another few weeks and lose this last few pounds. I bought a load of new clothes at the weekend (size 12 jeans!) so I absolutely can’t start putting weight on again. I have to keep going. I will keep going. Tomorrow is a new day, so they say!
And so that’s where we are now. I’ve got four weeks until half term, which should be plenty of time to lose my last half stone. I just need to get on with it, stop snacking and sneaking chocolate raisins out of the cupboard every few hours, and just stick to the plan!
